Wow I can't believe I'm posting another blog within a week??? Must be because I am bored... Just kidding.. Before I get into why I am writing another blog I wanted to share A great singer that has been so sweet to listen to and has just a unique voice. Lindsay Mccaul! She performed at Emmaus and her music just really peaceful and just such great meaning to it... So i recommend you music listeners to listen to her!! You will not regret it!!Well here it goes! I am very honest with the struggles I have been faced with! About a hour ago I wrote some lyrics which really has a great meaning to me. The story isn't just for what I have been through with myself and other close people to me but for others in this world who are suffering with hurt and pain and my heart just breaks for those who are broken and wounded deep inside. It's not easy not to want to give up when things get rough.. Our first response is to run away because were afraid to deal with it or whats going to happen?? Am I not right? But what I have seen in my life is a handful of people just get deeper and deeper in pain when not dealing with the issue they are facing which leads them to break more and more. I know what it feels like to hurt so much you feel like there's nothing worth fighting for!!! But let me tell you there is so much to fight for and there are others who will stand by your side and help you through your pain.. It literally took me 18 years to really believe this and really deal with all those issues inside bothering me and When I did I felt so free and peaceful that I was able to open up more!! Life is never easy I face obstacles almost everyday and I have to say am I going to run or keep going and deal with it??The word Believe is stuck with me because I have a reason to Believe that it will be okay!! I believe in others that they will be okay! Like I said the fight is worth fighting for because you will gain so much from any experience. And dealing with it will really help me in the Long run :) I know what it feels like to lose hope in a storm that you cant seem to get out of which leads to such strong self destruction and distorted thinking!! I want all those who know what I am talking about or are suffering to know that your loved by SOMEONE! and never forget that no matter what happens in your life.
So here is the song./lyrics i wrote the story behind this is "Someone" who is close to my heart who i have known for 18 years that I have seen just give up more and more each day and how it use to affect me back in the day!! It's been rough to see this person really dissolve and lose hope in all things!!
GIVING UP
**Giving Up**
Did you feel like there was nothing,
nothing to grasp a hold of
Every memory of everyday
did it all just fade away?
Are you looking, looking closely
to see reality
Is the hope gone are you not strong?
Did you just quit believing?
Now I wonder what it would take
to let you see you can be released
but your broken so its hard to
break through these concrete walls
**For every tear that hit the floor
I was reaching out for you.
Letting my heart to be in control
Would I be able to stop it all
If i could stop and go back time
Would it have been worth this life
But Giving up is all that's left.
Whats left within is all torn out.**
You cant see you look past everything
It's like your dying your not trying
So pain is all that this will bring
If i have up all i had left
would you change what you have
***
With all the scars left all around
will you heal your broken soul
Would the sound of peace
let you breathe or would
you just never try it at all.
I am waiting I am trying
to fight what tearing me apart
but the pain it will remain
until you reach the the goal.
For every tear that hit the floor
I was reaching out for you.
Letting my heart to be in control
Would I be able to stop it all
If i could stop and go back time
Would it have been worth this life
But Giving up is all that's left.
Whats left within is all torn out..
Is giving up all thats left within your heart.
Love
Brittany Nicole
